Live Without Regret!

For those of you who are wondering what the "I read nienie" and "c jane" buttons are on the left side of my blog, they are a direct link to the blogs of Stephanie Nielson and her sister Courtney. I went to high school with Stephanie's husband Christian. In August, Christian and Stephanie where in a private airplane crash in northeast Arizona and both sustained serious burns over much of their bodies. Christian has burns on 30% of his body and Stephanie has burns on 83% of her body, including her face. I have been drawn to the blogs as they have kept an update on their recovery and also on their 4 children. Reading their blogs has been an eye opening experience to me and it has given me a chance to think about my own life and evaluate what I can change. I do not consider myself to be a "fence sitter," I just tend to be quiet and keep my inner-most thoughts and feelings from everyone, including my family. In this day and age, I cannot afford to "cautiously share" my testimony or love I have for those around me anymore. The time to share is now!

I don't ever want Jeremy to wonder if or why I love him,

I don't want my boys to grow up not knowing how special they are to me,

nor do I want anyone to doubt, in any way, that I have a testimony of Jesus Christ.

After listening to our Prophet, President Thomas S. Monson's talk at the end of the Sunday morning session of General Conference, about "living for the here and now" and using a popular quote from the movie "The Music Man" that he has said before, "if you use up enough tomorrows, you'll find all you have are empty yesterday's,"

and his comment about "the endless fingerprints that cover everything in the house will soon be gone and you'll miss them when they are."



My plan of action:

• I'm going to embrace being an eternal companion and make sure that I don't miss an opportunity to let Jeremy know how much I love him, and cultivate an everlasting friendship!


• I'm going to embrace my season of being a young mom with little fingerprints on everything and the endless laundry, dishes, etc because my family is a priceless treasure.


• I'm not going to be afraid to be a living testimony and stand as a witness of Christ. I want everyone who comes in contact with me to see the love of Christ in my eyes.

This is my chance to become the person that my Heavenly Father knows that I can be, but only I can make this happen! I know that I am not perfect and that I will have moments of relapse, but thru repentance and prayer my life can be a testiment of what I believe.

Pains of Growing

The last month or so all 3 of our boys have been showing signs that they are growing. They are eating anything and everything they can get their hands on, and have been very tired. But there has been a few things I had forgotten were part of growing too. Clayton has spent many days on the couch groaning because of growing pains in his legs. Then of course the constant clumsiness. They have all been bumping into walls, more than normal, and tripping over their own 2 feet. In fact, in only 3 days Tanner gave himself a black eye, scraped the side of his face, skinned his elbow, skinned his knee, and then skinned his forehead. It was so pathetic, all I could do was give him loves as he hurt himself and laugh inside. It seems as if every few minutes I hear one of the boys complain of another bump, bruise or scrape. It has been entertaining, in a way, because we all end up laughing at the dinner table. As we talk about who did what today, instead of just the normal conversation of "Micheal, Clayton or Tanner learned this today," we have added, "check out this bruise," or "did you see what Tanners did to his face again," or "look what I did when I fell off of my bike." This is all terribly cute as I watch my 3 little boys grow up! I didn't realize how dangerous it would be. I hope they don't grow too much or we'll be in BIG trouble!